迷茫

最近,很迷茫..

仿佛失去了方向…

前所未有的慌张直涌进心头..

身旁的人事物,

没有间断过地往前奔跑、冲刺..

我却留在原地..

徘徊.. 裹足不前..

原因?

我也想知道..

这样的心情,

已经维持几个月了..

我好像再也找不回当初对服装的热忱..

对所有事物都冷淡了下来..

似乎没有一样东西能提起我的兴趣..

这是一个过渡期吗?

若是,

这过渡期何时才能过去?

唉..

好想放个长假..

好想喘一口气..

好想把那做不完的功课抛诸脑后..

好想一走了之..

好想把当初的自信与热忱寻找回来..

好多好多的好想..

唉…

能够吗?



Published in: on May 20, 2011 at 8:42 am  Leave a Comment  

busy life activated

it’s have been long long time didn’t update my blog..

yeah..

my life goes too crazy recently..

i dont even have time to online..

the 3rd semester is real mad!!

full of assignments..

full of stress..

and less of SLEEP!!

aikz..

i hope i can have 2 months holidays..

so i can sleep for 1 month and watch drama(s) for 1 month..

haha!!

anyway..

final is soon..

now have to rush all final projects and prepare for final EXAM!!

“pop pop.. pop pop..”

can you feel my heartbeat?? XD

please give me your support!!

aza aza fighting!!

yeah!!

go go go!!

add oil for my final(s)..

so i can have a 1-week-relax-holiday after that..

haha!!

see ya after my exam.. 😉



Published in: on December 8, 2010 at 1:14 pm  Leave a Comment  

走好了,天使

今天,

仍旧是沉重的一天..

今天是 angeline 出殡和火化的日子..

复杂的心情,

难以形容..

2个小时的车程..

我们抵达了马六甲..

原本已经平复些了的心情,

在我们见到她的遗照后,

再次崩溃了..

眼泪实在是难以控制地如涌出来的泉水般

夺眶而出..

真没想到,

我们认识才短短 7 个月多,

对她的感情却那么的深..

这是我们以往所没察觉到的..

当我们向前瞻仰遗容时,

情绪再次失控..

真的.. 真的..

非常不舍得这位朋友..

虽然,

她很安详地躺卧在棺木里..

但我们看了,

真的很心疼..

19 岁..

人生的黄金年华..

人生才刚起步..

就这么没了..

这怎么不叫人觉得可惜和遗憾呢?

看到她睡在那里,

心里真的很有冲动把她唤醒..

想对她说好多好多的话..

想和她一起完成学业..

想和她一起毕业..

想和她一起实现梦想..

想和她分享一切一切..

但,

这都已成为不可能..

她,

是我人生中第一个失去的朋友..

我的心真的很痛、很痛,

无比的痛..

脑海中不断浮现出和她有关的画面..

想起她冷静的样子,

很怀念..

班上每一位同学几乎都是急性子,

或者火爆性格..

当我们遇到不会做的功课时,

难免会发牢骚..

这时的她,

就会很冷静地来帮你..

就算她不会做,

她也会想办法帮你拿去问学长们怎样做..

我真的

很想念她那冷静的样子..

可不可以让我再见到你?

哪怕一次也好..

至少,

亲口和你说声,

再见了,走好了..

angel,

i really miss u…

u are always my angel..

 

rest in peace, angel

 

 

Published in: on October 20, 2010 at 2:52 pm  Comments (1)  

R.I.P our dearest Angeline..

our dearest angel

Published in: on October 19, 2010 at 7:59 am  Leave a Comment  

心中永远的痛

相信大家都有看到今天的报纸..

我的好同学, angeline foo 胡慧婷

昨天凌晨被大卡车撞毙了..

当我们接获电话时,

这个消息令人崩溃,完全接受不到..

这是一个多大的打击呀!!

心很痛..

想一想,

她仿佛昨天才站在我面前和我说话,

结果一转眼,

她就永远消失在这个世上了..

很难以相信,

可是事实就是如此..

我们被逼要去接受..

回想起来,

我这个朋友当得还真不称职..

她生前,

我没有好好珍惜和她在一起的时间..

我们可以说是连一张合照都没有..

最遗憾的是,

她生前,

我没把福音传给她..

没带她去教会..

现在,

不知道她的灵魂归向了何处..

很心痛..

angeline,

安息吧!

我们会把你藏在心里深处..

永远怀念你这个天使..

Published in: on October 19, 2010 at 7:52 am  Leave a Comment  

good news!!

im so happy!!

because…

i can continue my korean study!!

we found a korean church at sri hartamas..

and they promised to teach us korean!!

hooray!!

we already had 3 lessons..

we found that,

korean people are so nice..

and friendly..

and..

cute!!

hahaha!!

im so addicted to korean stuff now..

especially the food..

make me crazy..

i love rice cake,

i love bibimbap,

i love bulgogi,

i love kimchi fried rice,

and blah blah blah…

tasty!!

and k-pop also my recent favorite!!

i so crazy over BIG BANG and 2NE1..

they are so awesome!!

love them.. ❤

Published in: on October 17, 2010 at 7:16 am  Comments (2)  

改变、转变、蜕变…

最近,感觉到末日迫近了..

可是..

看到身边的人还没信主..

很焦急..

看到已经是信徒的,

还在罪中打转,

我更是忧虑..

我很想帮助他们..

可是,

我觉得我没资格..

也许是平时少读经吧!

论圣经知识,

也许我朋友比我还懂..

所以我也不敢讲他们什么..

所以,

现在我很努力在做出改变..

我很努力在读经..

祷告..

我希望自己的生命本质能彻底改变、转变,甚至蜕变!

然后以我的生命去影响生命..

可是,

也许会有人说,

我很假..

还是,我在装伟大..

我很肯定,我没有!

我是真心的想帮他们..

还有,

有一位好朋友,

他是基督徒..

可是我看到他在犯明知故犯的罪..

我真的把你当成很好的朋友..

所以我才会讲你..

我希望你不要讨厌和误会我..

我是希望你能好好的!

因为主再来的日子近了..

不要再沉沦下去了..

要会数算自己的日子..

儆醒..

我不是“我已做到很好”的意思..

我只是希望你和我能够一起努力..

学习活得更像耶稣..

也许是我多心,看到你的 wall post 以为你在骂我..

又或者那是真的..

无论怎样,

我希望你能多一点祷告..

求神帮助和引导你前面的道路..

救你脱离那圈子..

我也知道你说过你很讨厌那些一直搬圣经的话出来讲的人..

不过,

我是真的有读到和领受到这些经节,

才 post 在 fb 的..

我也希望其他人看到这些经文时,

能够有所得着..

总之,

我不是假假..


Published in: on September 18, 2010 at 4:31 pm  Comments (6)  

salut

yo!

i’m back!

had been long long time didn’t update my blog..

because i’m freaking busy recently..

so much assignments make me cant breathe..

next week final exam!!

OM!!

so..

will be update my blog again soon!!

after exam!! 😉

stay tune!!

Published in: on September 16, 2010 at 5:45 pm  Comments (2)  

teenage dream

You think I’m pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I’m funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I’ll let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You’ll be my valentine, valentine

Let’s go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We’ll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I’m living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can’t sleep
Let’s runaway
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I’m complete

Let’s go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We’ll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I’m living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can’t sleep
Let’s runaway
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

I might get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

You make me
Feel like
I’m living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can’t sleep
Let’s runaway
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

Published in: on August 26, 2010 at 1:02 pm  Leave a Comment  

it’s august!!

what’s the meaning of august?

somebody’s birthday lo..

hahaha!!

although it’s passed..

but i still feel happy now.. =p

so happy that he gave me a chance to celebrate his birthday with him..

this is the first time..

i really happy that i stayed beside him the whole day..

although it’s tired..

but then i feel so sorry that i didnt plan well..

so just bring him to eat..

hope the time can reverse..

give me a little more time to replan..

hope to give him a memorable birthday..

gotta start to plan next year’s birthday..

hahaha!!

siao!!  =p

Published in: on August 25, 2010 at 1:53 pm  Leave a Comment